Peace and greetings
I would probably want to start a new OFFICIAL post despite my previous entries, which I might be either clearing or posting them at a later date. As for now, I think I’ve finally decided what is to be done with this blog of mine; it is now turned into my own traveller’s diary.
Should I make a design to describe visually about myself? That’s not the issue for now.
Anyway, this virtual diary of mine will be a record of my journey in life which probably includes how the world and the people around has shaped me to become who I am today, be it good or bad, mentally liberal or neurotic ( and probably, psychologically disturbed).
I probably never think thoroughly if I should ever be doing this even as I intended to do so couple of days ago.
Just to share with you a little secret; this post was originally done at night and it was even put up. However because I disliked the way how I expressed myself and desperation in yearning for someone to understand me, I could not help but retype the entry with hopes of organising my words in maturity terms. Because the official entry was initially written at night, hence the title of the entry, PRELUDE: BEGINS NIGHT. I apologise if it sounds familiar –you might have probably heard it somewhere but please keep it to yourself if you do.
Let me begin with a horrendous fact which probably led me into blogging. It started with me having a heated argument with my mother a few weeks ago. Probably those who have me as your friend in Facebook account would probably know that.
At that point of my life, I felt deeply remorseful, not with what I had done by hurting someone whom is still dear to me. But I was truly remorseful of all the things that occurred to me in my life, so agonising where these experiences that I kept only to myself.
But I think everything should put be to an end, a good end.
That is why I’ve decided to write again, to write about my journey in life as I watched my pasts, never wanting to vent my frustrations on anyone any longer.
Yet at the same time, I truly hope to focus more towards philosophies and theological issues as I cannot help but admit that I am pretty much an agnostic these days, with the exception I do still believe in the existence of God and worship Him as how I was taught since young.
Let’s not get into the details, for I’ll save that for future entries of this Blog. Before I officially end this post, I hope you too would supplicate to God that I may receive His Guidance.
“I’ve been living as an ignorant all these years. I’ve been living to feed my desires all the while. But no matter how hard I tried to fight against the beast in me, I kept failing and stumbled. I climbed the mountain high, only to fall on my back and landed on its foot.
“I craned my neck to catch a glance of the mountain’s peak –it was beyond my sight. My desires had led me to go through once again the torture and agony of life to reach the mountain’s top. Where I’d once nearly reached the top, my desperation and impatience rendered me my downfall.
“As I write, I want to emphasise that I want to be sincere, calm, patient and determined to discover the truth about the world, about the universe, about nature and everything that is in all that is mentioned… all for the sake of understanding myself.”
Please enjoy.
I would probably want to start a new OFFICIAL post despite my previous entries, which I might be either clearing or posting them at a later date. As for now, I think I’ve finally decided what is to be done with this blog of mine; it is now turned into my own traveller’s diary.
Should I make a design to describe visually about myself? That’s not the issue for now.
Anyway, this virtual diary of mine will be a record of my journey in life which probably includes how the world and the people around has shaped me to become who I am today, be it good or bad, mentally liberal or neurotic ( and probably, psychologically disturbed).
I probably never think thoroughly if I should ever be doing this even as I intended to do so couple of days ago.
Just to share with you a little secret; this post was originally done at night and it was even put up. However because I disliked the way how I expressed myself and desperation in yearning for someone to understand me, I could not help but retype the entry with hopes of organising my words in maturity terms. Because the official entry was initially written at night, hence the title of the entry, PRELUDE: BEGINS NIGHT. I apologise if it sounds familiar –you might have probably heard it somewhere but please keep it to yourself if you do.
Let me begin with a horrendous fact which probably led me into blogging. It started with me having a heated argument with my mother a few weeks ago. Probably those who have me as your friend in Facebook account would probably know that.
At that point of my life, I felt deeply remorseful, not with what I had done by hurting someone whom is still dear to me. But I was truly remorseful of all the things that occurred to me in my life, so agonising where these experiences that I kept only to myself.
But I think everything should put be to an end, a good end.
That is why I’ve decided to write again, to write about my journey in life as I watched my pasts, never wanting to vent my frustrations on anyone any longer.
Yet at the same time, I truly hope to focus more towards philosophies and theological issues as I cannot help but admit that I am pretty much an agnostic these days, with the exception I do still believe in the existence of God and worship Him as how I was taught since young.
Let’s not get into the details, for I’ll save that for future entries of this Blog. Before I officially end this post, I hope you too would supplicate to God that I may receive His Guidance.
“I’ve been living as an ignorant all these years. I’ve been living to feed my desires all the while. But no matter how hard I tried to fight against the beast in me, I kept failing and stumbled. I climbed the mountain high, only to fall on my back and landed on its foot.
“I craned my neck to catch a glance of the mountain’s peak –it was beyond my sight. My desires had led me to go through once again the torture and agony of life to reach the mountain’s top. Where I’d once nearly reached the top, my desperation and impatience rendered me my downfall.
“As I write, I want to emphasise that I want to be sincere, calm, patient and determined to discover the truth about the world, about the universe, about nature and everything that is in all that is mentioned… all for the sake of understanding myself.”
Please enjoy.
Next entry will probably be named CHAPTER 1: The T------ Life; Childhood
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